Saturday, December 16, 2006 ((:
cant believe youmake me confusecant take it anymorewhere is tat initiativeits always me askingwhen do you ever listen to meyou have your own wayever tried making upnever mend whats brokeni see the real youmore participation please"All the times that I've cried All this wastin', it's all inside And I feel all this pain I stuffed it down, it's back again And I lie here in bed All alone, I can't mend But I feel tomorrow will be okay" Staind- Outsideits been a whilei dont feel itlike you always dodo you understand meput yourself in my shoesreflect upon all that happenwhy is everyone breaking up withone another?
we should just stop and think,
think about where is your own fault and not the other party's
its about reflection, its about communication
its about giving in
cant we just sit down and talk about our own mistakes
ultimately, people do change
relationships is where you accept how people are,
nt how you want it to be
put yourself in your partner's shoes
and feel how they feel
(lyk u ever did)take the initiative for both of your own's sake
(lyk u ever did)dont wait, the longer you wait, the faster it will fade out
to those people, you knoe who i m toking abt. dont fuck things up.
go face reality
i'm feeling damn fucked up.
are u alive?
please give me ur attention, please take initiative.
i cant stand waiting.
i cant wait any longer.
come back to me.
fucking confused, pissed, dissapointed, giving up hope
fuck you.
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11:15 PM
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Thursday, November 23, 2006 ((:
today was the release of PSLE. exciting sia. my sis gt 261, pro rite? still below my target. third in level leh. highest was 264. pathetic. hah.
hy going off to india and her camp stuff. 3 wks. i probably will jus die or b reborn. date me. i m always free. unless its work.
3wks.
cool aint it.
its lyk nth to her.
wadeva.
shall busy myself wif others.
my legs hair is lyk out of control. wana wax. woo. n b a bapok. i wana trim my eyebrows too. my cousin does tat. a guy by the way. i hate hair other than those on my head. yucks. eew~ fucking gay.
any body interested?
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8:40 PM
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Monday, November 20, 2006 ((:
wad can i do?
help me
shit
i cant describe my feeling
disappointed i guess
and also
wanting to help but you cant do anything about it
its fixed
"
It's been a whilesince i could say that i wasn't addicted and
It's been a whileSince I could say I love myself as well and
It's been a whileSince I've gone and fucked things up just like i always do
It's been a whileBut all that shit seems to disappear when i'm with you
But everything I can't remember is fucked up as it may seem
the consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again
Why must i feel this way?
just make this go away
just one more peaceful day"
Staind- Its Been Awhile
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8:20 PM
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Saturday, November 18, 2006 ((:
i'm plug in to the wall
hear nothing
i'm know wad i m told
i know when to fold
just tell me baby
wads ur story
i won the race bt lost my mind
help you to help myself
i did it again
i cant keep myself under
where will you be
dont take the shortcut
its there
wipe me off my feet
throw me only when i m dead
its jus hooded up
went thru my mind
fascinated my heart
stirred it a storm
nt the world
she's on the road again
she got the mood ring
who could love
she has that perfect bloodline
better than blood
better than sugar
better than sex
but nt better than you
PLS IGNORE.i said the truth you dont believe it trying to care for you bt it was nt recieved wad u siad was rite i wasnt who i m u werent happy perhaps u donnit nd me u were rite we nd time out i hsud hav listened to u the scratches were reality check the walk he was beneficial how could i be so stupid i never had my day it was all you is tat all u knoe how to say is it all u know wad to do oh my i want it even more of u one aint enuf u makes me happy when you are yet u still complain i aint you were always first all i nd is appreciation instead of u becoming more demanding bt wad can i do i m just the low down guy tat is a sore to your eye tat cant make u happy tat make u irritated and piss u off all the time and who must succumb to you arent u happy u dont feel it cos u hav no time to sit back and think of the things tat i hav done for u aint u grateful u r there tinking of wad i hav nt appease u yet shit come to think of it i had nt done enuf for u i sux as a bf enuf i m a much worst i don deserve the chance i jus nd to prove im takin this chance no matter wad i nd to prove it to u just hang in there im the jerk to b blamed there's no one to tok to except the com i nd a channel u r nt there neither will u listen though "Knock the world right off its feet and straight onto to its head
Book of love will long be laughing after you are dead
Fascinated by the look of you and what was said
Make a play for all the brightest minds and light will shed"
Red Hot Chili Peppers- She's only 18
i still love u. even u dont thoughtake a walk when u hav troubles
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10:25 PM
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Tuesday, November 14, 2006 ((:
huiyen rox my socks!
pls applaud!
nvr sms her for one day, no reply frm her too. guess wad, i always take the initaitive to sms her first. in the end, i see alot of intiative man. haix. wadeva. dont sms, dont sms la. i care a lot man.
btw, huiyen is the most glamorous gal i ever met. its sacarstic by the way. ask me personally. its for ears only. $2 per session.
i cant stand her anymore.
tats y i m sitting down nw.
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9:19 PM
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Thursday, November 09, 2006 ((:
I WALK LIKE AN AG BENG MEH?!?!@#$%^&*!@$%^&@#$%%^&*&*&$%^&
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10:20 PM
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Tuesday, November 07, 2006 ((:
teng huiyee, dont say i nvr update hor. this is an update for u. y u so kapo read adult blogs. its 16 and above only. tsk. wadeva. wad a wierdo. smemore this girl called me to ask me to update. din noe so popular within kids. mayb shud tell stories nxt time.
had op today. nervous lyk nobdy business. point middle finger oso will shaky. luckily our intro was captivating. the qns are killer. tsk.
went for lan aft tat. waited damn long for one bapok to bring us shirt. nt bad wd him, make us wait lyk half hr. he is the best man. still have the GPF to submit. argh. retardedness.
i think i m blogging for the sake of blogging.
sme ppl arh, say wana blog abt anniversary, den SHE GT BLOG ALOT. wadeva man. nt impt wad.
boxers are cooling. freed for once. they noddding away liao.
blah. tok later.
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8:29 PM
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Thursday, November 02, 2006 ((:
gt a new com. its damn noisy. i think i gona put it in a air tight bag. wadeva. sme old ah pek fix it for me. my god. damn pr. speak all of those device tat i nvr hear bfore. i can imagine them sitting around the coffee shop drinking beer and chatting on the best processor in the mkt. blahaha. i m kind of glad tat my com now have no more problems. no hiccups when i watch porn. yeh. wadeva.
imagine. jus imagine. tmr is ur anniversary. both of u decided to go out for dinner, den she suddenly say she nd to go hme by 9. u ask her why. and she say she wan go hme watch TV. wont turn off wad. sianbo. tv very impt hor. wadeva. shant care. give in lor. give in all the time lor. tsk. no money.
ACDC is my favorite band. true rock.
i nd cash. i wana work. bt i cant only work for 2 wks. having gf is having such a strain on my finances. i nd a job. ANYBODY GOT LOBANG FEEL FREE TO CONTACT ME. i wan to b a pimp. i think they earn lots. they will become hunchback sia. too much bling bling around their neck. i wan to be a pimp. i've made up my mind. cos i don knoe wad u heard abt me...
jay: aiyo, pimping 谁教你的啊?
me: eh, 我生下来就会啊, 你不知道啊?
jay: 屁eh.
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10:34 PM
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Wednesday, October 25, 2006 ((:
am i tat irritating?
do u detest or hate me tat much?
wad did i do wrng?
was i wrng frm the start?
i nd answers. desperately. i nd to be enlightened. pls tell me. save me from my soul. was i tat irritating over lunch? i was merely glad tat i promote. when i m happy, i tend to crap a lot. tats y i was irritating. ur sudden chng worried me. u ignore me make me searching myself for answers. i found none. mayb i was all along at fault. sorry. i nd u to tell me whr i m wrng. haix. reflecting is always a pain when u come up empty. i have my pains. i m confused. i nd answers. i m willingly to give. bt u seems unhappy in wadeva i do. i felt hopeless. regardless of wad, i told myself to be patience and tolerating. actually i willing to take in all of ur unhappiness. bt looks lyk i have gone astray. perhaps i was at fault in the begining. try as i may to u happy, i still fails. haix. been ur bf, nt to irritate u, making u happy, trying nt to hurt u and to love u all at once had been rewarding. seriously. i m glad to have u by my side. i m always here for u. i hav nt been bothering abt myself. u are more impt than me. still, u r unhappy. wad i hav been doing all along have now irritated u. i m sincerely sorry. caring u and nt trying to irritate u have been strenous. bt wad i reap have been rewarding. seeing u happy have been lyk a present for me. seriously, though i don get much frm u, bt i m still happy. haix. wads wrng wif me? ur slightest comments affects me. pls don do tat anymore. i wan u and i nd u. don let me go. i wan a date wif u. bt i get pissed at myself for nt being able to meet u. sorry my dear for wadeva pain i hav caused u. don ask where is my love. cos my love have been here for u, it nvr chng. haix. i m damn troubled.
i nd u, i wan u. if my heart still continues to love u, i will nvr give u up. nvr. I LOVE U, ALWAYS.hope u can understand me, forgive me and love me lyk u always did...
(my shoulder is fucking pain sia. i cant even raise my hand. SOMEBODY PLS TELL ME WAD TO DO TO CURE THE PAIN)
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8:52 PM
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Sunday, October 15, 2006 ((:
ok, i've given up on u.
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2:19 PM
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you can say wadeva u like. i dont realli care (this sentence sounds so monotone)
i waited duno how many hrs in front of the com jus to wait for u. u nvr said srry or wad for pansehing me. PW is impt. bt i dun think any last min work may help a lot. seriously, its useless when its called a grp project work when onli a fraction of the grp is working. i think its evryone's fault instead of that particular person fault. i feel tat u are responsible for tat grp. if anyone is giving problems in tat grp u shud tell straight to the person and resolve it instead of going abt and whining to others. wad a grp i might say. differences shud belted out and nt talked abt behind pple back. wadeva.
project work wldnt b called a GROUP WORK if it isnt done together by evrybdy in the grp. hopelessness.
anyway, being selfish is oe thing, being self-centered is another. if u are both go fuck the wall. think abt me man. how many times have i giv in to u to go where ever u wana go. hav u allow us to go where ever i wish to go once in a while. if it make u detest so much leave singapore la. so what if u have go there so many times in ur flirting days till u are sick of the place. excuses i may say. countless. i cant stand it any more. the prob is i wana go u dont wan; the place u wana go, i hav no choice. eversince god knoe when, u kept taking me for granted. thx. i m ur dog isit? nvm if u dot go where i wana go. i hav friens to go with. O YA, I FORGOT. YOU WILL GET JEALOUS IF I GO OUT WIF THEM! SORRY!
i seriously wonder. u will get jealous when i go out wif friends. OMFG. moreover, U THINK I FLIRT A LOT IN SCH. WAD UTTER RUBBISH. U THINK I M U ISIT? FOOLS. I DONT FLIRT (only wif boon, nar.) everything oso jealous. toking to my good frien/bro oso jealous. mus as well u lock me up and don let anybdy come near me. ur attitude is pushing my limits. get it in ur brain.
fuck off and be fucked up, fucking fucker.
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1:09 PM
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Thursday, October 12, 2006 ((:
damn lazy to blog now. pure laziness. oso nth to type though.
had a teeth problem. freakin pain, freakin irrritating and freakin hard to eat. dont tell me to est porridge for the nxt few days. i will die from hunger. wadeva. ppl who cant wait to kiss me gota jus wait.
i jus wana discuss sme pressing issues here. can smebdy tell me why ppl lyk to sit at the back of the bus and start to blast their music from the back of the back. nt racist or wad bt malays lyk to play techno or malay songs while sadly chinese lyk to play chinese songs which totally sucks. wah personal DJ on the bus arh? so cool sia. showing of their hp or isit no money to buy headphones? smetimes i realli wana go up to them and say their taste of music suck. forever playing sean paul, qwen stefani, fergie, etc.
get a life! try playing classical music instead. i think their balls too big. total faggots of the society.
i was watching the daily show on youtube. i encourage ur to watch it . its damn funny. wadeva.
see i told u i have nth to post on my blog. boredom.
o ya. there is a new charity organisation, its called kevin charity foundation. PLS DONATE GENEROUSLY.
peace out.
"Some say you're trouble, boy Just because you like to destroy All the things that bring the idiots joy Well, what's wrong with a little destruction?" the fallen- Franz ferdinand
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11:27 AM
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Saturday, September 30, 2006 ((:
i just wana say that i m sorry, huiyen. i m sorry that u became jealous because i went out with my cousins. sorry.
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006 ((:
damn taxing. wierdly yes. it seems lyk u can really live as nth happens, bt actually u cant. really duno how, really dun know wad can i do. is it all my fault all the time? seriously i dont knoe.
who can i turn to, when i have no one?
ironic, indeed.
i've hurt the one.
who can i turn to?
there's no other substitute.
what a perfect song...
"It's hard to believeThat there's nobody out thereIt's hard to believeThat I'm all aloneAt least I have her loveThe city she loves meLonely as I amTogether we cry" Under The Bridge by Red Hot Chili Peppershow can i change?
follow the zephyr
its where i drew blood
runoff
i gave my life
i want a perfect soul
you kept me high and dry
elton says it all
my blues
the red is on
wish on
everybody's changing
displaced
one last
its ok u dont understand. neither do i. its all random. its the saddest times when u write the best stuff. don bother me. i jus wan to be inside me. i like it. don bother. its an art trying to block out and empty all ur feelings. a balloon will burst smeday. there's no safe place one cld hide. i lay down my arms. srry. going to war is not a solution. in the end, one side bounds to have more casualties. srry.
we can cry together. i would.
"When you were here before, Couldn't look you in the eye. You're just like an angel, your skin makes me cry. You float like a feather, in a beautiful world. I wish I was special, you're so fucking special. But I'm a creep. I'm a weirdo. What the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here." Creep by Radioheadsrry ppl aint in the mood. if don understand. jus read. don ask. jus forget it. peace.
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9:59 PM
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Monday, September 04, 2006 ((:
so long din blog. one again, i think that my blog is dead. kiss of life my frien. bring me back to life. i've been shag, diverted, unfocused. tried to rearrange my piorities. helpless man. temptations arent called temptations for nth.
blessed. nah.
everybody's talking abt promos. everybody's stress is making me stress too. lay ur hands. study is all i wan. honestly, i think i m wierd. i feel lyk studying at 5 in the morning. i mean rite now i feel lyk. at 5, i dont think so. gosh, i think all my class ppl alll mugging at hme. paranoid sia. smebdy prove me wrng. all i knoe is that kai shud take a rest. ur eyes are popping out. one day i hope ur brains explode. muahaha. ate too much nuts. (i'm becoming nuts for ur info if u r that stupid)
is blogging for entertainment? oOo... wad a nice GP essay.
i wana eat pancake. guess i m pregnant. wadeva.
fei yu qing is pro. i dont know y he lyk to look up when he sings. lyrics board hanging on the top? or is it for better flow of air in his windpipe. cool. we shud all try.
i m fucking pissed now.
its nt entirely my fault, it majority urs. u lyk to walk on ur own, so be it. i jus love ur comments. hypocrite sia. i love to bear grudges. watch out. i've warned u. watch out.
i wana to play majong. o ya, i hate ppl to jump to conclusions. when i said i wan to play majong, i did nt mean it mus b at ur hse. how dumb can u get? seriously, i think my balls is bigger than ur brains. blahaha.
BOOM! chs days jus overwhelm me.
i wonder how eminem can hold a concert. how does he memorise all the lyrics.
"i get more ass than the toilet seat"
cool. haha.
peace out.
try drinking if u can.
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