Saturday, April 01, 2006 ((:
you left me stranded
alone
where the fuck am i?
where the fuck are you?
i couldnt breathe
questions went unanswered
torn between feelings
confusion
struggling in the midst of distractions
irritations
lower my head and charge into hypocritism
you still left me there
your image faded away from my grasp
helplessness
reaching out for your warmth
missed it, you went too fast
in no man's land
darkness there to confront me
silence there to comfort me
fuck it
nothing seems to be at the right angle
blurred
feelings had faded like the last light
prayers seems unavailing
legs cant be lifted
dragged on by the pain
numbness could be felt
what the fuck should i do?
i took a walk
clearing my head
but thoughts still linger
clogging my sense of purpose
walking myself to tp interchange
fatigue seems too good for me
unwelcome thoughts extricated
steps felt lighter each time
tp seems to be so familar
but it feel so unexplored
doubts are inevitable
will i put it down or pull through?
love seems to be alienated
let you go if i must
but you are my air
second thoughts?
does dates matter all to you
because time will last forever
till the end of our soul
our spirit never ends
the walk to tp int was beneficial
you obviously didnt give a fuck
thank you _l_
"one more kiss could be the best thing
one more lie could be the worst
and all these thoughts are never resting
and you're not something i deserve
in my head there's only you now
this world falls on me
in this world, there's real and make believe
this seems real to me
you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand
you love me, but you don't know who i am
so let me go
let me go" (rite) 3 doors down- let me go
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10:41 PM
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