Thursday, August 03, 2006 ((:
my desecration smile
hideous face
clouds cover it all
nt so bad
here it comes
once again
soak through me
suffocation chamber
words unarranged
or restrictions
plans turns around
humanity too real
thanks for been blatant
woke me up
separates from the inevitable
left me behind
all ends back to me
karma
the ones that i owe
gone
broken?
in pieces?
fallen from grace, yes
ponder
today sucks. best day ever. got a super hy with me. got all excited with swensens. climax. in the end change of plans. gone. kapow. no more icecream. better still. left her alone to buy stuff, ask her to follow me she says to go myself. ended up she smsing me saying a tiko man sitting smiling at her and dosent dare to walk way. i came back and there she blames for leaving her alone. didnt she not wan to follow me and choose to stay by herself. smart. smemore i asked why she don dare to move away when suspicious ppl comes, she say she scared the person will grap her hand. face the consquences man, don cha regret. sigh. the fault always come back to me.
5? big deal. u make it seems so unimportant. rmb this day i will. u too. let history repeat? it does. cross the line, try it. end up with nth. don say things u don mean it. whatever man. is it so hard. u brought it up but u are still the one that rejected ur own idea. drag me through the circle, end up with worthless shite. wad a day. i was lost.
searching for the answer.
tell me.
where do we go? nobody knoes.
i got no slp tonite
i got no underwear tonite
chilly
no, jus chilling...
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10:41 PM
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