Wednesday, October 25, 2006 ((:
am i tat irritating?
do u detest or hate me tat much?
wad did i do wrng?
was i wrng frm the start?
i nd answers. desperately. i nd to be enlightened. pls tell me. save me from my soul. was i tat irritating over lunch? i was merely glad tat i promote. when i m happy, i tend to crap a lot. tats y i was irritating. ur sudden chng worried me. u ignore me make me searching myself for answers. i found none. mayb i was all along at fault. sorry. i nd u to tell me whr i m wrng. haix. reflecting is always a pain when u come up empty. i have my pains. i m confused. i nd answers. i m willingly to give. bt u seems unhappy in wadeva i do. i felt hopeless. regardless of wad, i told myself to be patience and tolerating. actually i willing to take in all of ur unhappiness. bt looks lyk i have gone astray. perhaps i was at fault in the begining. try as i may to u happy, i still fails. haix. been ur bf, nt to irritate u, making u happy, trying nt to hurt u and to love u all at once had been rewarding. seriously. i m glad to have u by my side. i m always here for u. i hav nt been bothering abt myself. u are more impt than me. still, u r unhappy. wad i hav been doing all along have now irritated u. i m sincerely sorry. caring u and nt trying to irritate u have been strenous. bt wad i reap have been rewarding. seeing u happy have been lyk a present for me. seriously, though i don get much frm u, bt i m still happy. haix. wads wrng wif me? ur slightest comments affects me. pls don do tat anymore. i wan u and i nd u. don let me go. i wan a date wif u. bt i get pissed at myself for nt being able to meet u. sorry my dear for wadeva pain i hav caused u. don ask where is my love. cos my love have been here for u, it nvr chng. haix. i m damn troubled.
i nd u, i wan u. if my heart still continues to love u, i will nvr give u up. nvr. I LOVE U, ALWAYS.hope u can understand me, forgive me and love me lyk u always did...
(my shoulder is fucking pain sia. i cant even raise my hand. SOMEBODY PLS TELL ME WAD TO DO TO CURE THE PAIN)
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8:52 PM
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